Throwing up words

 Swinging to and fro on the tree swing, on the road with no one to be seen. People say that this place is haunted, but that's the only place where I feel wanted . The tree seems old and wise, suddenly there is some noise, ahh it's just a mice. Looking up in the sky, the clouds seems dark and angry, maybe clouds introspection has been broken because of me. The land seems barren and dusky, but I feel more attached to it rather than my father who is devoted to whiskey. Maybe the tree has it's own story, seems like it's eyes are tired remembering the clash of whigs and tories. -Shruti Upadhyay

 Just want to run away from all the chaos, take your hand and go to a place where we can find tranquility. Travel on those roads which are unseen and untravelled. Maybe those roads are unwanted but with you I am sure these roads will be the hidden paradise for me. Lying in the heart of nature talking about the universe and your heart. I want to know the slopes and steeps of your feelings. Get lost in the serene beauty of nature and your warmth. Lying on the unkept grass with tickling water of rain on my face, want the time to stop and just lay there for eternity. Making face of our loved ones in the clouds, existing on the food of love. Drawing patterns on the soil and talking my heart out without moving my lips. Welcoming our neighbour ants and listening to their stories of adventures. Tracing the roots of our ancestors and thinking why we need city when we have this.. -Shruti Upadhyay

 This is the word I have heard more than thousand times. But the pun here is I don't believe in this word. This is the first time I am acknowledging it, i earlier used to trust people but now I have learnt, people have the tendency to stab at your back. Sometimes, I feel I am the modern Julius Caesar who has been betrayed by my own people . Won't it be fun if there's a play written on me - "Modern Julius Caesar: a story of betrayal". But there would be just one problem , my half of the play would consist of climax. " Et tu Brute", is the most iconic line of the play. For me it would be "Et tu *inserts ex friends names....*" and the list goes on. I would be stabbed by more than 60 people.  Who I am, speaking against these people when I don't even trust myself? My father had always taught me never trust anyone more than yourself. But being the ignorant teenage I did the opposite (sighs in Lara Jean's voice), and ultimately felled on my fa...

 My voice is trapped due to societal norms, I can't say the truth cuz of dignity of yours. But it hurts me everyday to see the thorn like lies covered with flowers. It kills me whenever comes the call, why can't people accept their follies and falls? They say I don't know anything, I am naive but what about the imprints that can't be vanished from my brain? Cheating is wrong I have learnt from the start, but what if those who teach you are doing wrong? Many people surrounding me, but no one to talk falling in this mud going deeper down, I can't walk. -Shruti Upadhyay

 I thought I would write something hopeful in this tough times. I took my pen and notepad and went to the roof, maybe nature becomes my muse. I always loved evenings, cold breeze crossing across your face, trying to find your beloved's face in the midst of rays. Even though the evening was cherry and peaceful there was something eerie about the evening. There was an underlying gloom well hidden in the chirps of birds or maybe it was hoots. I don't know what it was but it seemed like an intuition about the upcoming storm which will be wild. I don't have visions; I am not a sufi nor a scholar. But maybe it was a call or alert just like the thunder before the flood that swept away everyone except Noah. I was deep in my thoughts and didn't even realised that 3 hours have already passed, I registered it when there was a call for me coming from down. I collected my unused notepad and pen and descended down with a heavy heart and thousands of questions swirling by.  -Shruti Up...

 The power of weakness started engulfing me, it made me dizzy and my mind blank. My muse was lying on the bed, whimpering and babbling Maybe, she wants me to jot one last novella. I am being transported into another world, where there's happiness and no curse. I thought myself, is it really a curse that has fallen on us? Or is it the consequences of our dead done? My muse reached out for my hand, I came out of my world to the reality in front. She looked into my eyes, searching for the quest of rebel which is long gone. She is expecting me to protest, to change the world. But has she forgotten that I am already dead? Dead because what's the point of living when you can't do anything but just watch and weep. Dead because I can't blame those who have lead us to our own tomb. My muse's hold on my hand starting falling, her face turning into ecstasy. A large drop comes out of my eyes, I got up and started preparing for the burial for my muse's demise.  -Shruti Upadh...

 I don't like PDA, I said to my class softly I whispered in his ears I love when you give me small forehead kisses. Love when you hold my hand and become my shield. Look foreword to when I catch your eyes and you turn your face down with a small hint of blush on your cheeks. Love when you tuck my hair beside my ear, when you see back even if someone called my name. I love when you show your affection, love you for understanding me and accepting me as I am. After hearing my confession, he laced his fingers with mine and head for the next lecture. -Shruti Upadhyay

 I was always being taught that India is a democratic country, but is it really? Now, I think. We do have a right to choose, but where are the options to choose? You can't say a child minded leader as an option, or the one who have kept personal interest up than the national? Do we really vote by our own views,  or we give our votes because of the promise of huse? The option of NOTA is as ignored as the voice of women in terms of marriage. It seems like we are still living in monarchy when I see minister's son becoming Deputy or IRC. People have came into terms of this democracy, let it go, how it's going. -Shruti Upadhyay

 I was close to death, instead of feeling peace as people say i was scared as hell. My heart was beating frantically, my mind was blank as to what I should do. It was the time when I realised who really loves me. It's really easy to say dying is better than living but trust me when you are on the verge of dying you would find thousands of reasons to live. So, live your life to the fullest, and never regret anything because maybe for the things you are crying now would make you laugh in the near future. -Shruti Upadhyay

  Her deep breaths echoed the tiny room sitting beside her I was weaving through my thoughts and wool. She occasionally opens her heavy eyes and watches me with an expression which I couldn't put my finger on. My brother and sister left us for the city rush, and my father ran just after my mother took the bed. Her eyes are dull, there's no spark which she used to had earlier. She had nursed me for years and now it's my turn to return whatever I had lear. -Shruti Upadhyay